He IS Still God ... A GOOD God!

So many of you have seen the interviews on WNDU of our family and where we are today. We have gotten so much positive feedback. The clips were all put together so well. God has used it to bring closure and healing to others! It's clear that God had his hand in it! He still does...

God is working in my heart ... big time! There is so much more healing that He wants to do in me. I am struggling with grief that has been overwhelming at times and vivid memories of the "aftermath" of the accident. He is taking me in a new direction of healing. I'm realizing that this is going to be a process ... long or short, I don't know. This is frightening for me but it's ok. He has shown me that he is going to trudge through the messiness of it with me. Even though this isn't an easy process for me, I know that it's for my good. He has been reminding me to cling to him with all that I have within me.

Here's a picture that God gave to me yesterday during a prayer time with a friend ... There is a pond/puddle of muck and mud. I saw myself trudge through this muck and mud. It was a thick, sticky muck. It was hard to get through ... at times getting stuck but being able to keep going. Once I get to the other side, Jesus is there to hose me off ... so gentle. The area around the pond is so pretty with lush green grass and wild daisies, my favorite. :) Jesus is cleaning me off and I walk over a small hill and on the other side is a breath-taking view of hot springs surrounded by mountians. He invites me to go into the hot springs and relax ... that is my reward for pushing through the mess of the muck and mud.

After this picture He showed me that he is trudging through the muck and mud with me. He won't be walking around the edges cheering me on, but He will be in it with me.

I remember a while ago God showed me that avoiding the pain isn't going to make it go away. It's only when we go through it, even if it takes so much energy that it's exhausting, that's when we have victory. So, I am trudging through the muck and mud of my pain. I have confidence that Jesus is going to go through this with me... I need to trust Him!!