Holidays are usually emotionally up and down for me. This year is no exception.
There are a whole realm of emotions that bombard me ...
- the reality of stepfamily scheduling
- missing PopPop and Grandmom at Thanksgiving
- the joy of reconnecting with Jeff, Wendy and Matthew & Sarah ...my Cauffman family... this year was wonderful!
- the approaching wedding anniversary of John and I on December 10... this year would have been 16 years... grief creeps in again... unexpectedly at times.
- the reality of step-family scheduling ... again
- making sure my children get their Daddy John gift again this year ... this is expected now. :)
- spending time with my incredible, wonderful, amazing family!! Oh how I LOVE and VALUE them with my whole heart!! I feel so very safe with them!!
- these are only the ones I can mention publicly ...
Eventually we all get to the point of surrendering all we are to the God of the Universe ...
1 comment:
This entry was good for me to read... I am missing all 3 of them very much and thinking of Christmas Past very frequently... it felt so good to be with you during Thanksgiving and I am wishing we could see each other more often... March will be here sooon :)
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