42nd Birthday

Today is John's 42nd birthday. For two weeks I've been anticipating this day... still not sure why it's been a harder to work through this year. Someone mentioned to me that the weather may have something to do with it. Not much good is to be said about the weather lately, that's for sure. Today is one of the first really nice days... sunny and 46 degrees! What a blessing!
The day started off with me being moody and edgy. The kids got to school late because I needed a moment to cry right before we left. My emotions came out at the most inconveniant time. The school office ladies were great and gave the kids a pass to class and told me not to worry about it.
To fill my day I went to the gym and got a good workout in and then went baby girl clothes shopping for one of my friends who had a baby girl yesterday. They now have 4 boys and 1 girl! So I went to the hospital to see her gorgeous baby. She really is gorgeous! It was good to see new life!
After school the kids and I went to the cemetary for a small birthday party. We released balloons, sang happy birthday, and ate cake. The kids always love doing this and then have fun walking around looking at all the other stones. :) In a way it's healing for all of us to do this.
I think that letting the kids walk around looking at the stones is good. It's a way of seeing the reality of death. It's also a way for them to understand that they aren't the only ones who have experienced the death of a loved one. It's a fact of life and they accept that reality. We don't have to like it, but it's healing to accept it.
Overall it was a good day...